Healing Takes Time

TW: suicide, depression It's been a wild few months and things haven't necessarily gone according to plan.  I had been diagnosed with Bipolar II Disorder for about two years now and I have been struggling to find the right medication.  Along with trying to find the right medication I have been going to therapy regularly…

Why?

I haven't felt like blogging for a little bit.  I made a goal of writing a post every week and posting it on Sundays. I was doing pretty good for about a month and then I hit a wall. I started to get stuck in my own head.  I kept thinking that no one wants…

Wake Up Call

TW: Eating Disorder, Suicide In my last posts I talked about asking for help when I was struggling.  One of the major reasons I sought help was because I just gotten out of a disastrous relationship and I was not coping well. The relationship was all sorts of unhealthy and because of it, I started…

The Power of Fear

In my last post, I talked about how I sought help and was diagnosed with Body Dysmorphia Disorder. It was really difficult and terrifying to know that I had a disorder.  I didn't tell any of my friends or my family members for a really long time, because I was worried about how they would…

Asking for Help

Hello!  It has been awhile since I posted a blog and I have some new followers, so I thought I would take some time to talk about a time when I reached out for help. I have always had extreme body image issues and I would engage in unhealthy coping mechanisms.  I had mood swings…

Betrayed

Today I feel betrayed. Not by someone I know, but from something that I've known my whole life. My brain. My thoughts. My obsessions. In fact, I'm rather livid. I'm mad that I can't get a hold of my disorder most days. I have missed out on so many things because of obsessions that keep…

Here’s to You

  The past few months I have been thinking about powerful women and how society treats them. I've currently been in situations where I've stated what I wanted in a professional way and I was told I was too aggressive. Now I'm not a powerful woman but I do consider myself strong. I've been through…

Disastrous Relationship

Well, hello there! I last left off talking about how there were moments in my life that lead me to seeking help. So, today's topic will be about the first time I sought counseling for myself. I had been to therapy before, however it wasn't my choice. I have noticed that if therapy isn't my…

Seeking Help

I have always struggled with depression and anxiety my whole life.  Most of the time the depression is manageable and I am able to go about daily life.  During my rounds of depression I still feel disconnected and numb, however I can at least 'deal.' As much as I would like to pretend that I…

One day…

My hope is that one day things will change. One day, I will wake up and my current depression will be lifted. Realistically, I hope one day to find a way to cope with my depression, anxiety, and Body Dysmorphia. I'm in the process of creating that 'one day' for myself. The truth is it…